I'm having a really, really bad day today!!

Well I'm being really bitchy today and getting mad about little things. I guess that I am frustrated also because NO ONE listens to me about anything--ie. kids, husband, etc. I really hate the feeling also that I can't go anywhere without having to take kids. What makes kids feel that they have to go EVERYWHERE with me?! No more because from now on if I want to go somewhere by myself I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!

I guess that since I don't get much adult conversation anymore that it has made me a little bitchy. Don't get me wrong, Angel is 15 now so it's not as though I don't have "adult conversation" but it's that I want the adult conversation with my husband because we have little to no time together as it is but NO--NONE time for just us. We can't even go out to dinner by ourselves without a guilt trip put on us. Angel does do wonderful with the kids and it is quite a task for her to have all three kids by herself but George and I do deserve a little bit of time by ourselves. There is NO WAY we will leave the kids with Nikki and Brian and it's not due to Brian but we will not have them in harms way when Nikki goes off the handle because one of them does something wrong. Nikki is getting really bad now and who knows what she might say or do to them. She is even worse than when she lived with us. I just can't write enough to explain how bad she has become. Let's just put it this way--she is not really welcome over here most of the time because she will come start stuff with us when we haven't even done anything. She doesn't come over to see her kids and that is "our fault" and things like that. She will come over here and bitch at us for something and because we don't go running after her to make sure she is ok, she says that we don't care and never have. She is just a bitch!!!!

Anyways enough about her because it just makes me more mad to think about everything. Well I will post later because I need to get out of here before I explode.

Ok the straw that broke the camels back

Yesterday was Alex's birthday (he turned 3 yrs old) and Nikki couldn't possibly come to his party because of something Lexie had supposedly said. Lexie hasn't said anything to her to warrant this behavior but oh wait--its just Nikki being a BITCH. The only thing that we can figure was that Lexie asked her to go with her to buy her a pack of smokes (Lexie had the money but her ID was over at her friends house and she couldn't get it). Nikki, in one her "sessions", cut up her ID so she didn't have one to go do it. She had lost an ID, went and got herself a new one, and then found the old one. She cut one up and then didn't remember so she cut her other one up. Nikki couldn't do it so Lexie asked Brian to go get them, he did and Nikki was mad, mad, mad. Lexie is 21 now so it wasn't like he was buying them for someone under age, she just couldn't get her ID from her friends house. Nikki is really getting bad and the kids are really seeing it coming out now. Sure they like to go over and see daddy and her but they know where home is and its NOT with them. (I should really say not with her b/c daddy sees them almost every day) Brian will come and give them kisses before he goes to work every day and then comes over almost every day he has off if he can or he will see them outside playing but he does make every effort to see them. This is actually two years in a row that she made up some stupid, piddily excuse NOT to come to his party.

I was going to do his party on Wednesday so that George (aka Grandpa) could be here but since Brian had to go to SLC to the VA hospital, I went ahead and made the party for on his actual birthday which was Friday. I was in a way thinking of Nikki also but not anymore. George has had it with her attitude and such so from now on, the parties will be done on our time so papa can be there and the hell with her--Brian does understand and he just spends as much time with them as he can. Since she couldn't come to Alex's party, she will not be aloud to come to the others' parties either. Brian has tried his hardest to get her to be something to these boys but he really is fighting a losing battle because if Nikki can't have it her way then she gets mad about things. Well it is her that will loose out on things and she just has her own self to blame.

Ok now on to much happier things in my life right now---WE'VE GOT A MINI-VAN AGAIN!! We got an '88 Ford Aerostar, the color is blue, its very nice inside, but the only thing we need to do for it soon is tires. I am soooo happy that now we have something big enough to carry all of us comfortably and to be able to have all the kids in their carseats. It gets really hard to have six people in a Pontiac Grand Prix with three of them having to be in carseats--it just was not comfy at all. We did do what we had to do to get around but now it will be nicer. George will drive the car and I will have the van. George really wanted to have the "new" vehicle this time (I usually am the one that gets them but I am also the one that transports kids all the time and so I need it) and we almost had one for him but the guy that we were going to buy a truck from just wouldn't get the truck ready and then his wife ended up having to drive it for a little bit so we found something that actually will be better on gas then a big truck. We will have a little elbow room now which is what we have needed for some time.

Well I better go now so that I can get some housework done and then I can play for a while before I have to make dinner.